See only virtues and specialities..

I read an email today that was send by jay(mama).. And i really thought this is something everyone must read! And must ponder about it so tat eventually we will try and later somehow follow the virtue.. atleat thats what i wish for myself to do...

An ant is tiny beside an elephant but as soon as an ant enters the ear of an elephant it goes crazy. The elephant's ears are so big, the elephant itself is so big and yet a tiny ant makes it go wild. In the same way, if I allow the slightest defamation of anyone go through my ears, I lose all my spirituality. I lose all my value because I start interacting with others on the basis of what I have heard about them. Pay attention to this! We have to be very, very selective in what we allow to enter our ears. Let me learn to see only virtues and specialities. Let me not concentrate on anyone's weaknesses.

And a quote for today which came into my mind : Never Explain Yourself To Anybody.. Becoz the person who likes you dosent need it. And the person who dislikes you wont believe it.

Hmmm....

Life is very interesting wid many different kinds of people around... sometimes i wonder if strangers can be someone better to talk to than our own frens.. Its sad when ppl break the trust that we have upon them... or just do not appreciate our frenship.. hmm.. ok let me put this thought aside.. let me talk abt my dance!

SHiva shiva...the yogi-B song is wad iam going to perform for on the 21st june. And its the opening item! I really pray very hard tat all of us will coordinate n do a gd job.. well i have the faith tat eventually its gonna be the best dance cos everyone is putting in their 101% effort=) Iam really proud of the gals... they are just so wonderful.. hmm and i dunno how many of my frens r coming for the show..

My 2weeks break...

Its just the start of my so-called two wk hols.. and there comes my busy schedule with so much of things to do... Lol. Cant help it.. cos its my final year and ive got assignments lined up together wid my final year project! My FYP requires me and my grp to collect abt 400 surveys... so the 2wks of my hol is going to be travelling to do the survey, house to house.. And ya.. i have commitment towards 'Nigel and Friends, Ngee ann ics 25th anniversary show'. Im participating bcos its for charity.. and im dancing and singing. Ive got rehearsals almost everyday.. ahh..
Oh i still have to clear my room.. cos ive put in such a mess.. can anyone guess how much of messiness ive created?! My sisters have no comments about how i mess my room during exam periods... LOL. Gosh.. ive also got 2 frens bday this week.. and ive got appointment wid kana, shan n my long lost tpjc frens... hmm.. and not forgetting my practice wid pravin for sangeetham! In fact i thought of polishing my dance wid kana and shan also.. but dunno if i'll ever find some time for tat! I hope i can sel the tickets for the show too... its falling on a sat, 21st june. Its my sister's bdae tat day as well.. My only wish for now is tat.. hope the time pass by slowly for the 2wks so tat i can do all my planned activites.. God bless me!!!

Haiz..

Well, well.. i just happen to go to kana'a blog and saw the link to my blog! Hehe. What the hell rite? I actually forgot tat i have a blog.. tats cos i guess everyday im piled up wid so many more impt things to do.. tat i forgot abt writting posts!
Nursing at ngee ann is probably the only course that has final year project, attachments and exams for final yr students! I see all the other year 3's frm other courses just going for attachment or doing FYP for their last year.. so unfair.. but well i guess we bunch of nursing students still gotta come sch to keep our minds fresh wid knowledge and hands skilled wid the practicals so as to be competent during attachements!
SIgh... Neways im just taking a break now after studying.. ive still got papers tml and thurs! N i forgot to bid farewell to sangee... it was in my mind.. and then i forgot abt it.. jus too many things up my head! Wooohoo.. I feel i need to shop once im done wid papers... to relieve all the stress!! Im so tempted to shop bcos of GSS, but its just two days more... so i better wait :P

Valentine's day

Im gonna turn 22 sometime soon and im still celebrating v dae singly! But well no regrets.. thx to all the frens who had spend wonderful time wid me for V dae every year! N of course its a blessing to be single all along. Im truly hapi abt it and proud of myself! N my sisters surely get me smthg every Vday and make me feel so special! But to me V dae its not just a mere xchange of gifts but more to it.. There's a real love in the air when everyone seems to be soley sharing love. Atleast there's one day in this world where i see ppl respecting love... Neways i saw kana's blog n she's wrote abt how the Vdays had been for her for the past many yrs.. N i got reminded of my Vdays frm my sec sch days too. In sec 2 i guess we started xchange of gifts.. me, trish, jo n dana.. then in sec 3, sangaran ask me to be his valentine.. but tat was all for fun.. in our hearts we knew it was true frenship.. in fact tat was to make thrish jealous.. and to create some sparks bet the missai nanbhan and sexay trish.. but nothing worked! Haha, to think abt it now, everything seems so funny. But ya.. tat was a memorable Vday cos first time i was a valentine to someone and i got a box of chocolates. Yeah.. then in JI.. wid kana and sangi.. and the love tat started bet us goes strong till tdy and im glad tat ive been holding on to a frenship tat started at first 3mths. Love u babes. Hmm then in jc.. frens jus wished each other, give chocs n say i love u and you love me very loudly! hehe. N then even tho jo, tris and dana were in diff schs i met them to give gifts for Vday wen i was in jc.. and i rem once i met them at LJ, n it was wen we were 18 if im not wrong.. when i was 20.. someone who i was dating asked me to be his valentine.. n we went out.. hmm.. after tat.. last yr again wid all my makkals at the khatib mac.. and this yr at woodlands mrt station... the places doesnt sound fantastic.. its always some runned down place or some street corner where we catch up.. but love still do spark in the air.. like we haf fun jus by mocking at each other! Wad r frens for? haha. Anyways happy valentine's to all! Love u guys..

Regrets and anger about my attitude!

I feel so sucky... and i hate this feeling.. it comes back to me now and then and makes me feel like a loser! Now why this sucky feeling? The answer is ive so many regrets about wad has happened in the past 5yrs of my life! Especially last year... I jus hate myself for doing the wrong things in life. Sometimes, iam just such a big time slacker that the absence of action has also caused some effect in my life, which i really cant face now! Im too tired of pondering now and then wad are the mistakes ive done in my life. I keep thinking about it so much so that i think im going mad at times. It prevents me from concentrating on my other important chores! After so much of pondering for past few weeks and all, i realised that i have some very bad qualities in me. Which i need to forcefully throw away. These qualities in me have allowed me to make big blunders too!

Bad qualities/characteristics

1) Anger ( very quick-temepered, irrational thinking at the point of anger)
2) Procastination
3) Irresponsible (Iam not responsible of my actions, tend to blame others if things go wrong in my life)
4) Lack commitment to the tasks assigned to me/duties in my life
5) Failure to plan any task leading to bad time management
6) Lack focus. (Tend to easily slip out of a task, as in not do a proper work after some time)
7) Lack of Punctuality
8) Lack discipline and tend to make all the mistakes stated above despite knowing them at times and tend to repeat them bcos i lack so much of discipline!

I need a big time transformation! Just not by saying so.. by doing so!

I can achieve anything my mind sets to it... so i better go for it.. start changing my mentality!

I continued doing the report today.. woke up at 5am, started typing.. took few breakes in between.. again started.. paused.. didnt know if report was written well.. asked siva, my aussie fren who was online(msn) for guidance.. poor fellow, help to scan thru for me.. anyways he was the right person cos his got bachelors in Psychology and i was doing a psychology report.. n in the process of writting it, i became psycho!!! Jo also helped me to check for grammer n language errors. I thank them both whole heartedly! Neways, i completed d report abt 4.20pm. Rushed out of hm.. took a cab, reached sch at 4.55pm! N my report was due at 5pm. So i made it on time. Felt like a super heroine at tat moment! But now i feel quite worried.. cos dunno how's the marks gonna turn out.. Anyways, every experience in life teaches us a lesson.. N the gd lesson that i learned while doing this report was.. try to manage time in a better way so tat amidst so much of school work n my social life, i can still start off earlier to do such assignments! Cos its always a terrible situation to do work at last minute.. N the feeling is sucky! And i take responsibility in blaming myself 4a bit of procastination involved on my part!

Oh the cab cost me abt 13bucks. A serious waste of my money, for spending only 5mins at sch.. i met dana after tat at beauty world centre. We talked crap as usual.. but neways tat helps alot for laughter.. jus talk la.. hehehe. N then my journey was to lenin sir's hse to help him out wid packing. His family is shifting to senkang. N they suppose to vacate the hse tml morning.. so i was sure they needed help to clear many stuff by d night... I took the wrong bus to their hm, the bus went a big round n then i alighted back at the interchange. Took d MRT after tat n by then i was already exhausted! I reached their hm at 9pm. Helped them till 12.30am. Thank god we stay near each other. Sir and chaitanya send me back hm in a cab n they returned back hm in the same cab... tat was sweet!